First Wonder of the World

Sometimes I read a certain Bible verse for years and never really feel all that much connection to it... and then one day I get an "aha" moment when the verse becomes tangible. I think this is probably because we're such visually and emotionally wired beings that we need God to make His Truth real to us in His timing. I had one of those "aha" moments yesterday and these verses became beautifully animated.

 

 For you created my inmost being;
    you knit me together in my mother’s womb. 

 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
    your works are wonderful,
    I know that full well. 

 My frame was not hidden from you
    when I was made in the secret place,
    when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.

Your eyes saw my unformed body;
    all the days ordained for me were written in your book
    before one of them came to be. 

 How precious to me are your thoughts, God!
    How vast is the sum of them! 

 Were I to count them,
    they would outnumber the grains of sand—
    when I awake, I am still with you.

Nope, I'm not preggo. But I did get to witness an ultrasound for the first time.  I've been volunteering at a local crisis pregnancy center once a week and one of the much looked forward to perks for me was going to be sitting in with a client while she got her first ultrasound done. The girl was 8 weeks pregnant and this is pretty close to what it looked like. 

At first I was a little disappointed how tiny and 'blobbish' it really did look. Like, I wanted crystal clear images of the little forming limbs. Ones that would make even abortion-minded people fall in love with "life". But as the nurse zoomed in on the fetus, I forgot my disappointment and was awed with the visibly fluttering heart beat. That was enough for me. Although the mother didn't seem outwardly moved - I, on the other hand, was trying to professionally stifle a few tears. The verses that I posted above were shouting themselves in my ear and the sheer awesomeness of how we are created made me tingle a little. 

Not only did He tenderly knit me together in my mom's womb, but He also planned all my life during that time. Not one of my days has happened without His authority and sovereignty. Some days I wanna be like, "okay God, since You've got it all planned out already, would you mind giving me a little insight to those plans? I sure could use a hint here and there.." and then some days I'm like, "hmm...what in the world where You thinking, God, when You gave me that day there, and that day over there...How could have that possibly been part of the plans?" 

Ahh yes... we never will get complete answers this side of heaven. However, I think that's what faith is all about - choosing to trust that He had and has purposes for every single day, every single experience, and every single circumstance. It was all lovingly and tenderly planned. I only need to TRUST. And maybe someday I'll get to see the "big picture". 

Thank you God for ultrasound technology that captures the tiniest and most powerful "wonder of the world".