In the Key of G

Reflections at Week 39 You, little kiddo, are about to enter into the big scary world. A big scary world where there is a whole lot of pressure to “get things right”. I'm sure that right about now it all looks pretty harmless… your biggest problems being the hiccups and not enough elbow room. But as you will discover slowly but surely, life is made up of millions of tiny decisions. From the time you are born until the time you die, you will be making them. Lots of them are going to be so tiny you won’t even realize you are making a choice. Other will be huge and in your face, and you will have to intentionally choose a path, a belief, or an action. Bottom line, wherever you go and whatever you do, there will undoubtedly be pressure to get it right when making these millions of tiny and huge decisions. But to make things even more complicated, “getting it right” looks different to so many people. Success is not black and white. We adults spend a lot of time dif...

Sometimes when I talk to Father, I get into ruts. One of my big ruts last year was a desperate (almost whiny) monologue going something like this…. "Father, I'm so hungry. I'm desperate for you to reveal Yourself to me. I'm stuck. I need MORE. I need something today that takes away  this doubt and this unrest."  I didn't think about it as whining at the time, because I was very sincere. I guess there is such a thing as a "sincerely whiny" prayer, because I seemed to nail it. By the end of the year, my whiny-ness turned into a more blatant and honest frustration with God for this never ending hunger issue that was repeatedly being ignored. I felt everyone else around me was advancing to more intense spirituality, and I was growing stagnant and stuck. When I finally told Father I was sick of asking, that's when things started getting a little clearer. I was obviously missing something key here. And most likely praying wrong. It never came...