Keeping it Simple
Sometimes when I talk to Father, I get into ruts. One of my big ruts last year was a desperate (almost whiny) monologue going something like this…. "Father, I'm so hungry. I'm desperate for you to reveal Yourself to me. I'm stuck. I need MORE. I need something today that takes away this doubt and this unrest." I didn't think about it as whining at the time, because I was very sincere. I guess there is such a thing as a "sincerely whiny" prayer, because I seemed to nail it. By the end of the year, my whiny-ness turned into a more blatant and honest frustration with God for this never ending hunger issue that was repeatedly being ignored. I felt everyone else around me was advancing to more intense spirituality, and I was growing stagnant and stuck. When I finally told Father I was sick of asking, that's when things started getting a little clearer. I was obviously missing something key here. And most likely praying wrong. It never came...